Sick of Editing my Thoughts and Conversations

Hi everyone. I try to be as transparent and honest in everything I say and do, but I wanted to post this with my deepest sincerity to say that I’m very sick and tired of always having to go through the motions in life, in order to “fit-in” or “appease” the normal majority of people. We all have expectations from each other to communicate in certain ways, or want to relate to everyone on a broad level, but the truth is, I really don’t want or need to relate to everybody (not to mention there are simply too many people to relate to). Besides, I find it refreshing to meet people who are completely different than me and who don’t use the exact boring social styles that I use. I think we as individuals act fake for too much of our lives and that we should be as honest as possible with ourselves and others, even if it means being unpopular for your actions or opinions. I personally would rather have someone be honest with me and be themselves, rather than being phony and talk to me on what they perceive as “my level” in order to hold down a conversation. I notice this happens a lot with strangers and people in managerial positions who are uncomfortable interacting outside of their “social” or “financial” class. They try to talk to you about sports or something basic as if that is the only thing a common man knows how to discuss. Then you sit there and are expected to smile and thank them for patronizing you, instead of telling them that you are not as stupid as you look. And furthermore, I’m sick of editing my words in person and on paper. Why do I always have to finely tune the things I say so that everyone will think I’m a straight shooting individual? I would rather be myself. That is why this post is possibly my strangest yet, because I’m just saying whatever comes to my head and not editing a damn thing. I think we’re expected to go through motions in life and act fake, but I despise this lie. I would rather answer someone honestly when they ask “how are you doing?”, instead of always nodding my stupid head and giving the token answer of “good thanks”. Sick of editing. Sick of iedint. sick off eeditingg. sickk offf eDitING.